Hey all....just me, another blog. I hope this post brings you all well!!!! It's been a while since I Have blogged. I just think that my life isn't that exciting that I need to do it more. I was thinking today though that I might start using this as a journal of my daily life though....which means that I will probably have to set it to private....you know, so not everyone knows what I do every day.
Life has been good though!!! I started school the second week in January and love it. It's hard....not something that comes easy for me, but I am trying. I hope to be an RN by the time I am 31. That would be amazing. Its my passion, but sometimes I wonder if I can do it.
My love life....well, pretty much non-existent. I mean, I have someone that I am into, but I am also so sick of being played and playing games. I will NOT do it another day. Will not. I have realized over the last few days that I am worth it. I am absolutely worth it, and I am going to find the best!!! I am not ugly, I am an awesome runner, I am in shape....I am going to school, have a lot going for me....and I deseve the best there is to offer. I will find it.....and I can't wait for that day.
Lately I have been missing Montana so bad. There are little parts of me that want to go back. I have these moments where I just want to say fuck it all here and go. Why not? I feel like my heart is there, and I struggle with it a lot. Its not that I dont love my friends and family here.....but I feel like my heart was left there when I moved. I need to go back and get it and either stay.....or have some closure with the state. Its hard. I love Montana, and I loved being on my own. And what makes it harder is I have friends that want me to move back so bad. Its a hard choice. Hopefully I will know by May. I am going to go visit at that time. If I still feel this way I will probably stay there......we'll see.
Anyway, love you all....thanks for following me!!! I will be changing my blog to private next weekend, so if you want to follow let me know!!
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Happy Holidays
I can't believe it has been a year since I moved home. What a whirlwind of a year. I can honestly say 2012 has been the best and worst year of my life. The last few months have been better than some of my highest highs in life, but the first half was one of my lowest lows. So, I guess you can say its a toss up :)
A lot has been going on the last couple months since I wrote last. I decided to start school a little faster than I had originally planned. I will be starting in January and have 3 pretty hard semesters until I can apply for the nursing program. I will be a nurse by the time I am 31. I can't wait!!! Being a nurse has been my dream for a long time, and because of what I have been thru the past 2 years, it's been a little bit on the back burner. Oh well, such is life. Sometimes you never know what it's going to throw at you. I am looking ahead though and excited for my future :)
I decided to move downtown with my sister. She has a house on 900 E. 900 S., which is more like a triplex, so ill have my own entrance and space. I can't wait. It's been fun living at home, but it is also time to have my own place. I am so grateful for my parents though that they have let me invade their space and helped me through the past year. They have truly seen me transform myself into a different person, a happier person.
I still work at Rocky Mountain Hospice. My year mark is actually coming up in a few weeks!! I can't believe it, it seems like I just started yesterday! It has been absolutely amazing though, and I wouldn't trade working for hospice for the world. I have met some irreplaceable people in my life, people I wouldn't trade for the world. It can be hard at time, but so rewarding at the same time.
I am still dieting like a maniac. I have lost about 60 pounds this year. When I see that number I can't believe it. People ask me how I did it.....I guess this quote pretty much sums it up....
A lot has been going on the last couple months since I wrote last. I decided to start school a little faster than I had originally planned. I will be starting in January and have 3 pretty hard semesters until I can apply for the nursing program. I will be a nurse by the time I am 31. I can't wait!!! Being a nurse has been my dream for a long time, and because of what I have been thru the past 2 years, it's been a little bit on the back burner. Oh well, such is life. Sometimes you never know what it's going to throw at you. I am looking ahead though and excited for my future :)
I decided to move downtown with my sister. She has a house on 900 E. 900 S., which is more like a triplex, so ill have my own entrance and space. I can't wait. It's been fun living at home, but it is also time to have my own place. I am so grateful for my parents though that they have let me invade their space and helped me through the past year. They have truly seen me transform myself into a different person, a happier person.
I still work at Rocky Mountain Hospice. My year mark is actually coming up in a few weeks!! I can't believe it, it seems like I just started yesterday! It has been absolutely amazing though, and I wouldn't trade working for hospice for the world. I have met some irreplaceable people in my life, people I wouldn't trade for the world. It can be hard at time, but so rewarding at the same time.
I am still dieting like a maniac. I have lost about 60 pounds this year. When I see that number I can't believe it. People ask me how I did it.....I guess this quote pretty much sums it up....
That pretty much sums it up. I look at pictures of myself last year and I want to vomit. At some point I need to come to terms that it was an experience I had and that I have changed and learned from it, but right now I am still just mad at myself that I let myself go like that. At what point does someone do that to themselves? I can't imagine looking or feeling like that again. Hell no!
Anyway, thats pretty much it in a nutshell. I love you all, here are some recent pics :) Happy Holidays!
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Back to ME again
Hey all,
Its been a few months, I know. I have been a slacker. I can say though, that I haven't been wasting my time. My reason for not writing is very good. I will catch you up on what has happened since May. The last post I wrote I believe I mentioned moving back to MT....infact, I think I had just returned from my trip. Wow, lots has happened!!! After I got home from my trip I started saving my money to move. I got a second job working the NOC shift at Sunrise Assisted Living and was working days and nights. At the same time I was trying to save money to move, I was also trying to save for a car. My best friend Melissa's dad was kind enough to let me drive his explorer for a few months while I was saving and trying to get my credit score up to buy a car. Can I say I don't know what I would have done without Melissa since I moved home? Talk about a good best friend. She is amazing, and has always been there for me thru the tough times. Anyway, so I finally saved enough money to buy a car, and got one :) And what was even better was my credit score has gone up 150 points since I moved home. That really helped my interest rate. So, my car is a 2011 Chevy Aveo. Bright blue, my favorite color. The car totally fits me, and it gets great gas mileage, which is perfect for my job. I am still working for Rocky Mountain Hospice. I have been with the company for 10 months now. I can't believe it has been that long. Almost a year since I moved back to SLC! Crazy how time flies. This year has not been an easy one. I don't know what hell is like, but I can imagine it is something like the last half of my 2011 year and the first half of 2012. I look back at the past year and honestly can't figure out how I got thru that. I must have been carried by some spiritual being, because how I have made it to September 2012, is still a mystery to me. I am glad I survived it though because my life has become so much better the past few months, and has made me feel so grateful for my trials and the things I have been through.
After I bought my car I continued to save money to move to Billings. It was stressing me out so much though, that I couldn't sleep. I was constantly thinking about it and wondering how I was going to save $2500 by October. One night a few months ago I went to my other friend Melissa's house and we were chatting and she said something that struck me. She said "Amelia, something that is "right" shouldn't make you feel this stressed out. You are killing yourself trying to save money. Maybe its a sign you should wait for a while." I will never forget those words. They changed me at that moment, and I have realized since then, that if something is stressing you out SO much, it probably isn't right. Now, I am not saying by any means that I am not moving back to MT at any point in my life. I probably will, but the timing has to be right. I need to finish nursing and continue to recover from my break up with Jason. Yes, I am still recovering from that. Although I have come so far, I have realized that I am still going to have hard days. Those will probably never go away. When you go thru something as difficult as that, do you ever REALLY recover? I have come to believe that you don't, you just learn to live with the pain, and it becomes a part of you. Although other people can't see the wounds, they are there, and they shape you into the person you become. One song that has really stuck with me this year is "Stop Crying Your Heart Out" by Oasis. Every time I am having a hard time I listen to this song. The lyrics have changed my life....
Hold up, hold up
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile
Shine on
Don't be scared
Your destiny will keep you on
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up
Come on
Why you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of the stars, we're fadin' away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Anyway, so that has been my life in a nutshell. Annie adds more to my life than I can even say. She is amazing, and has helped me thru so much. I don't know what I would have done without her the past year. WOW. Pets really are incredible and have that healing power. I am hoping to move in November. I found a 2 bedroom house that is $600 a month!! It has a back yard for Annie to play in too. We'll see. I also sorta have a man....we will see how it plays out, I am stepping in very carefully, but also allowing my heart to guide me. Love you all....thanks for reading!!!!
Its been a few months, I know. I have been a slacker. I can say though, that I haven't been wasting my time. My reason for not writing is very good. I will catch you up on what has happened since May. The last post I wrote I believe I mentioned moving back to MT....infact, I think I had just returned from my trip. Wow, lots has happened!!! After I got home from my trip I started saving my money to move. I got a second job working the NOC shift at Sunrise Assisted Living and was working days and nights. At the same time I was trying to save money to move, I was also trying to save for a car. My best friend Melissa's dad was kind enough to let me drive his explorer for a few months while I was saving and trying to get my credit score up to buy a car. Can I say I don't know what I would have done without Melissa since I moved home? Talk about a good best friend. She is amazing, and has always been there for me thru the tough times. Anyway, so I finally saved enough money to buy a car, and got one :) And what was even better was my credit score has gone up 150 points since I moved home. That really helped my interest rate. So, my car is a 2011 Chevy Aveo. Bright blue, my favorite color. The car totally fits me, and it gets great gas mileage, which is perfect for my job. I am still working for Rocky Mountain Hospice. I have been with the company for 10 months now. I can't believe it has been that long. Almost a year since I moved back to SLC! Crazy how time flies. This year has not been an easy one. I don't know what hell is like, but I can imagine it is something like the last half of my 2011 year and the first half of 2012. I look back at the past year and honestly can't figure out how I got thru that. I must have been carried by some spiritual being, because how I have made it to September 2012, is still a mystery to me. I am glad I survived it though because my life has become so much better the past few months, and has made me feel so grateful for my trials and the things I have been through.
After I bought my car I continued to save money to move to Billings. It was stressing me out so much though, that I couldn't sleep. I was constantly thinking about it and wondering how I was going to save $2500 by October. One night a few months ago I went to my other friend Melissa's house and we were chatting and she said something that struck me. She said "Amelia, something that is "right" shouldn't make you feel this stressed out. You are killing yourself trying to save money. Maybe its a sign you should wait for a while." I will never forget those words. They changed me at that moment, and I have realized since then, that if something is stressing you out SO much, it probably isn't right. Now, I am not saying by any means that I am not moving back to MT at any point in my life. I probably will, but the timing has to be right. I need to finish nursing and continue to recover from my break up with Jason. Yes, I am still recovering from that. Although I have come so far, I have realized that I am still going to have hard days. Those will probably never go away. When you go thru something as difficult as that, do you ever REALLY recover? I have come to believe that you don't, you just learn to live with the pain, and it becomes a part of you. Although other people can't see the wounds, they are there, and they shape you into the person you become. One song that has really stuck with me this year is "Stop Crying Your Heart Out" by Oasis. Every time I am having a hard time I listen to this song. The lyrics have changed my life....
Hold up, hold up
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile
Shine on
Don't be scared
Your destiny will keep you on
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up
Come on
Why you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of the stars, we're fadin' away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Anyway, so that has been my life in a nutshell. Annie adds more to my life than I can even say. She is amazing, and has helped me thru so much. I don't know what I would have done without her the past year. WOW. Pets really are incredible and have that healing power. I am hoping to move in November. I found a 2 bedroom house that is $600 a month!! It has a back yard for Annie to play in too. We'll see. I also sorta have a man....we will see how it plays out, I am stepping in very carefully, but also allowing my heart to guide me. Love you all....thanks for reading!!!!
Friday, May 25, 2012
Lots of Catch Up!!!
I can't believe it has been over a month since I have written. Time just get past me sometimes, and I forget about the little things in my life, like my blog. I do have a lot of catching up to do though!!! In my last blog I mentioned that I felt "out of place". Yes, this is still the case, but at least I have finally made a final decision in my life!!! I visited Billings on May 8th for an entire week. I rented a car for the week, packed my stuff, and Annie and I drove by ourselves all the way there. I am not gonna lie, on the way there I was a little nervous. I didn't know what to expect, and I certainly didn't know what I was going to feel when I drove into that little town. As soon as I got off the freeway I had tears in my eyes. I miss it so much. I felt at home. I finally felt that peace inside that I have been looking for. I have been praying a lot about it, and asking God to give me some sort of affirmation of what I am supposed to do. As soon as I pulled off the freeway, I knew my answer. That week was absolutely incredible. I had so much fun with my friends, and reconnected with people that I haven't spoken to for a long time. It was amazing. Everyone kept saying when they saw me "WOW!! Amelia, you look great!!! You are a completely different person!" It was so nice for people to notice the change in me after not seeing me for 5 months. I think coming home is just what I needed. I needed to come home to get my head on straight, heal a little bit, and then go back. Even when I left Billings I knew one day I would be back, and this time it would be on my terms. I would live in MY OWN PLACE with MY OWN STUFF!!!!! It is going to be a great feeling the day I move back. One of the best things that makes this so great is that my family is all on board. They are all so great and supportive. My mom told me last night... "Amelia, I want you to go there, find an amazing cowboy who loves his mother and treats you like a queen.....and that will give you all the sex you want!!!!" Haha....she knew I struggled with that in my last relationship. I love my mom, and how supportive she is. I have come so far the last month, and I can say that I think my sad days are over. I have realized lately how much better I deserve than what I was getting. WOW. Whenever I get a glimpse of sadness I just have to remember the things that Jason put me thru the last year. I can't even believe I put up with it for one day. Makes me ill, and I am a beautiful woman who deserves more. I definitely know what I will and will not put up with in my next relationship. They say you live and learn, and I definitely have!!! Jason is a good guy in his own little way, but completely changed the last year we were together to the point I didn't even know him anymore. He was a stranger, and I didn't like that person. It's too bad that most the time when a relationship ends, its the crappy stuff that you remember. Anyway, so I came home, got another job working the NOC shift at Sunrise Assisted Living, and I am working my ASS OFF so that I can move on October 13th. I have two friends coming out to help me move, and my dad may come back with me again and fish with a friend for a few days. Things are definitely looking up for me. I have been working with a credit transformation company too and they are helping me repair my credit. I will be debt free by the time I move, with a brand new car. I am so excited!!!! Anyway, so that is a little bit of catch up. Hope this post finds you all healthy and well....
Love,
Amelia and Annie
Love,
Amelia and Annie
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Out Of Place
I haven't written lately because I have been trying to figure out why I have been so sad and so down on myself. I don't want to continue to write negative posts! I want to be happy :) As I searched my brain on what could be wrong I think I have nailed it down. Those of you who know me well, know that I have always felt a little out of place in Utah. Sometimes I feel like its not my home anymore. I heard a quote last week and it is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. It goes like this...
"You know that point in your life when you realize that the home you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? And all of a sudden the idea of 'home' is gone and you feel like you can never get it back. It's like you're homesick for a place that doesn't even exist." -Large
This is EXACTLY how I feel. To a T. I feel so out of place here. And trying to cope with a loss while living somewhere you don't want to be does not make it any better. At this point, the only reason why I stay is because of my patients. I love them so much! I do love my job, but I have found that I need to do what will make me happy.....and in Dr. Phils words.....this just isn't working for me. I am going to Billings on May 8th for an entire week. I have decided that I will see how I feel when I get there. I am going to say lots of prayers. If I feel when I get there that I need to move back, then I will. I will pack my stuff and be there by mid-June. If I don't, then I am most likely going to move to Seattle and look into nursing schools out there. I have always wanted to live there since I visited in 2010. It is so beautiful, I love the diversity of people, and absolutely love the location. I have always told myself that when I become an RN I will move there.....but lately I have been thinking....why not now? What do I have to lose? Right now is when I should be doing everything I want and being selfish. Climb mountains, run marathons, move where I want, etc etc. I am single with no kids and I am 27 years old. I have nothing to lose! All I know is I need to do something because this is not working for me in Utah. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends more than words can express. Melissa and Seth, Melissa Cooper....I love you both so much and you guys have helped get me thru the toughest time ever out here. I will miss you forever!!! But, I need to do what is right for me. And this isn't. So, there are some thoughts for the day. Love you all, thanks for reading....
"You know that point in your life when you realize that the home you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? And all of a sudden the idea of 'home' is gone and you feel like you can never get it back. It's like you're homesick for a place that doesn't even exist." -Large
This is EXACTLY how I feel. To a T. I feel so out of place here. And trying to cope with a loss while living somewhere you don't want to be does not make it any better. At this point, the only reason why I stay is because of my patients. I love them so much! I do love my job, but I have found that I need to do what will make me happy.....and in Dr. Phils words.....this just isn't working for me. I am going to Billings on May 8th for an entire week. I have decided that I will see how I feel when I get there. I am going to say lots of prayers. If I feel when I get there that I need to move back, then I will. I will pack my stuff and be there by mid-June. If I don't, then I am most likely going to move to Seattle and look into nursing schools out there. I have always wanted to live there since I visited in 2010. It is so beautiful, I love the diversity of people, and absolutely love the location. I have always told myself that when I become an RN I will move there.....but lately I have been thinking....why not now? What do I have to lose? Right now is when I should be doing everything I want and being selfish. Climb mountains, run marathons, move where I want, etc etc. I am single with no kids and I am 27 years old. I have nothing to lose! All I know is I need to do something because this is not working for me in Utah. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends more than words can express. Melissa and Seth, Melissa Cooper....I love you both so much and you guys have helped get me thru the toughest time ever out here. I will miss you forever!!! But, I need to do what is right for me. And this isn't. So, there are some thoughts for the day. Love you all, thanks for reading....
Thursday, March 15, 2012
The Scientist...
Today as I write I don't even really know where to start. As I sit here, Annie is sitting right next to me watching me type. I think she knows I am having "one of those days". She always knows. She has been with me thru the fire, and can tell when I am off. On those days, she doesn't leave my side. Really, the only thing that explains my feelings today is the song by Coldplay called "The Scientist". Here are the lyrics....this pretty much sums it up.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
I'm going back to the start
So there is my story for the day, and I am OK with that. I have to be ok with it because it is a part of me, and the last 5 years are not going to go away. I am having one of those days where I have been reflecting again on the past and what actually happened with Jason and I. I know it has been since September since we have actually been together, and I thought that these days were over with, but I was blind sided today when I started crying while watching "A Perfect Storm" (this was one of mine and Jason's favorite movies). I am sure I will be "blindsided" a lot when it comes to my past. And I am sure feelings will come up from time to time. Today was one of those. It is so hard living with someone and being with them every single day for 5 years....to nothing. Not seeing them, talking, texting, NOTHING. It is the weirdest feeling, I can't explain. I almost want to see how he is doing and make sure he is ok. Sometimes I wish he could be in my life in some way. We went thru so much together, I don't know how I will ever fully get over that experiece. The last few months I have had a lot of distractions. In my last post I mentioned a guy that I let go of, and then I have also been seeing someone else for a couple months. We are friends, but it is still a distraction. I have eliminated both of them romantically in my life, and now I have no distractions. Today I felt like the last few months I made no progress and I cried all day. I am facing it again, and I have nothing to keep my mind occupied. When will this go away? Last weekend I went to Tsumani to have sushi with my dear friend Melissa, and all I could think about was Jason. We went there literally twice a week, and went to the movie theater that is in the same parking lot every Sunday to see a movie. I had to force back tears the whole dinner. I asked my friend this questions that night and she was just as stumped as I am...."What happens to couples? How do you go from being so happy for a couple years, then it all goes away? What is the trigger?" She couldn't answer this either. It is something that I think about a lot though and can't answer. That is something that I need to deal with. Not having answers to every question. Everything happens for a reason, and there are not answers to every question. All I know is today I am hurting, bad. I feel so lost, and I don't know where my life is going at times. The only thing I am sure of is I love my dog, I have an amazing family, I love my job, and I want to be a nurse. that is all. Anyway, I hope this post brings you all well.
Amelia
PS....here is Annie watching me type....I love my girl.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
I'm going back to the start
So there is my story for the day, and I am OK with that. I have to be ok with it because it is a part of me, and the last 5 years are not going to go away. I am having one of those days where I have been reflecting again on the past and what actually happened with Jason and I. I know it has been since September since we have actually been together, and I thought that these days were over with, but I was blind sided today when I started crying while watching "A Perfect Storm" (this was one of mine and Jason's favorite movies). I am sure I will be "blindsided" a lot when it comes to my past. And I am sure feelings will come up from time to time. Today was one of those. It is so hard living with someone and being with them every single day for 5 years....to nothing. Not seeing them, talking, texting, NOTHING. It is the weirdest feeling, I can't explain. I almost want to see how he is doing and make sure he is ok. Sometimes I wish he could be in my life in some way. We went thru so much together, I don't know how I will ever fully get over that experiece. The last few months I have had a lot of distractions. In my last post I mentioned a guy that I let go of, and then I have also been seeing someone else for a couple months. We are friends, but it is still a distraction. I have eliminated both of them romantically in my life, and now I have no distractions. Today I felt like the last few months I made no progress and I cried all day. I am facing it again, and I have nothing to keep my mind occupied. When will this go away? Last weekend I went to Tsumani to have sushi with my dear friend Melissa, and all I could think about was Jason. We went there literally twice a week, and went to the movie theater that is in the same parking lot every Sunday to see a movie. I had to force back tears the whole dinner. I asked my friend this questions that night and she was just as stumped as I am...."What happens to couples? How do you go from being so happy for a couple years, then it all goes away? What is the trigger?" She couldn't answer this either. It is something that I think about a lot though and can't answer. That is something that I need to deal with. Not having answers to every question. Everything happens for a reason, and there are not answers to every question. All I know is today I am hurting, bad. I feel so lost, and I don't know where my life is going at times. The only thing I am sure of is I love my dog, I have an amazing family, I love my job, and I want to be a nurse. that is all. Anyway, I hope this post brings you all well.
Amelia
PS....here is Annie watching me type....I love my girl.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Catch up!!
Ah!! I can't believe it's been a month since I have written. So much has happened, my life feels so sureal sometimes. Its been good though. I love the things I have been accomplishing and I am so grateful to be alive. Especially with the job that I have. Life is so much more meaningful to me. I don't take any moment for grantid.
The last month has been good though. Annie and I are very close to moving out!!!! My friend Melissa and I are going to be renting a home together. We have been to see a couple, but haven't nailed anything down yet. We are looking for a 4-5 bedroom home with 2 bathrooms. I would rent the basement and hope to have 2 bedrooms in the basement, one to do my esthetics. I can't wait. :) I want to have an extra room to do facials, waxing, chemical peels, etc. It will be a good way for me to make money and also to practice this talent that I have learned.
Although the past month has been amazing, it has had its ups and downs. I got rid of someone in my life that I knew I needed too. Although I love this person very much, the timing is just not good, and this person needs to figure out what they want in life. I felt myself getting so attached to someone again, when at this point in my life I shouldn't be getting attached to anyone. I have a very long past with this person though, so it is so hard to quit him. But, I know I needed too. I hate that it had to end kind of badly, but I ended up getting angry and getting emotions out of myself that maybe I had been feeling for the past five years. Ugh I wish I could just find a guy that was emotionally and physically available!!!! Its ok though.....I know I will find my prince. :) My prince could still be this certain person....who knows. Time will only tell.
Annie has completely gone off the deep end with her potty training. In Billings, I had her almost completely trained. She would maybe have an accident once every couple weeks. Since we got back to Utah its like she is a new puppy. We are back to puppy pads and training treats. I feel so bad that she has had so many accidents in my parents house. Only a few more weeks here though, then its down to business.
So....I am going to the Dominican Republic May 8th-15th!!! Ah!!!! I am going with Marty, Shannon, and Ashlie. Its not really a couples trip although it is 2 guys and 2 girls. It will be fun though. Marty is seriously such an amazing guy, and I am lucky to be able to go with him!!!! We are going to an all inclusive resort for 7 days!!!! OMG! This is a trip that I have desperately needed, and I am hoping by that time that I will be in bikini shape. I think I will be!!!! I have lost 30 pounds since being home, and 4 sizes in my pants. WOW!!! I am so happy for myself. This has definitely been a good year for me so far. Bring in 2012!!!!!!!
My job could not be more amazing. I seriously have the best patients ever, and they have literally become my best friends. I can't believe how close we have become. I am convinced that I have the best job in the world. At some point in time, everyone should work for hospice. Its amazing and you learn so much.
Anyway, not much else going on!!!!!! Thanks for reading and keeping up with me and Annie. I love you all so much!!
Mills and Annie
The last month has been good though. Annie and I are very close to moving out!!!! My friend Melissa and I are going to be renting a home together. We have been to see a couple, but haven't nailed anything down yet. We are looking for a 4-5 bedroom home with 2 bathrooms. I would rent the basement and hope to have 2 bedrooms in the basement, one to do my esthetics. I can't wait. :) I want to have an extra room to do facials, waxing, chemical peels, etc. It will be a good way for me to make money and also to practice this talent that I have learned.
Although the past month has been amazing, it has had its ups and downs. I got rid of someone in my life that I knew I needed too. Although I love this person very much, the timing is just not good, and this person needs to figure out what they want in life. I felt myself getting so attached to someone again, when at this point in my life I shouldn't be getting attached to anyone. I have a very long past with this person though, so it is so hard to quit him. But, I know I needed too. I hate that it had to end kind of badly, but I ended up getting angry and getting emotions out of myself that maybe I had been feeling for the past five years. Ugh I wish I could just find a guy that was emotionally and physically available!!!! Its ok though.....I know I will find my prince. :) My prince could still be this certain person....who knows. Time will only tell.
Annie has completely gone off the deep end with her potty training. In Billings, I had her almost completely trained. She would maybe have an accident once every couple weeks. Since we got back to Utah its like she is a new puppy. We are back to puppy pads and training treats. I feel so bad that she has had so many accidents in my parents house. Only a few more weeks here though, then its down to business.
So....I am going to the Dominican Republic May 8th-15th!!! Ah!!!! I am going with Marty, Shannon, and Ashlie. Its not really a couples trip although it is 2 guys and 2 girls. It will be fun though. Marty is seriously such an amazing guy, and I am lucky to be able to go with him!!!! We are going to an all inclusive resort for 7 days!!!! OMG! This is a trip that I have desperately needed, and I am hoping by that time that I will be in bikini shape. I think I will be!!!! I have lost 30 pounds since being home, and 4 sizes in my pants. WOW!!! I am so happy for myself. This has definitely been a good year for me so far. Bring in 2012!!!!!!!
My job could not be more amazing. I seriously have the best patients ever, and they have literally become my best friends. I can't believe how close we have become. I am convinced that I have the best job in the world. At some point in time, everyone should work for hospice. Its amazing and you learn so much.
Anyway, not much else going on!!!!!! Thanks for reading and keeping up with me and Annie. I love you all so much!!
Mills and Annie
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