Realizations

Hey all....just me, another blog.  I hope this post brings you all well!!!!  It's been a while since I Have blogged.  I just think that my life isn't that exciting that I need to do it more.  I was thinking today though that I might start using this as a journal of my daily life though....which means that I will probably have to set it to private....you know, so not everyone knows what I do every day.

Life has been good though!!!  I started school the second week in January and love it.  It's hard....not something that comes easy for me, but I am trying.  I hope to be an RN by the time I am 31.  That would be amazing.  Its my passion, but sometimes I wonder if I can do it. 

My love life....well, pretty much non-existent.  I mean, I have someone that I am into, but I am also so sick of being played and playing games.  I will NOT do it another day.  Will not.  I have realized over the last few days that I am worth it.  I am absolutely worth it, and I am going to find the best!!!  I am not ugly, I am an awesome runner, I am in shape....I am going to school, have a lot going for me....and I deseve the best there is to offer.  I will find it.....and I can't wait for that day.

Lately I have been missing Montana so bad.  There are little parts of me that want to go back.  I have these moments where I just want to say fuck it all here and go.  Why not?  I feel like my heart is there, and I struggle with it a lot.  Its not that I dont love my friends and family here.....but I feel like my heart was left there when I moved.  I need to go back and get it and either stay.....or have some closure with the state.  Its hard.  I love Montana, and I loved being on my own.  And what makes it harder is I have friends that want me to move back so bad.  Its a hard choice.  Hopefully I will know by May.  I am going to go visit at that time.  If I still feel this way I will probably stay there......we'll see.

Anyway, love you all....thanks for following me!!!  I will be changing my blog to private next weekend, so if you want to follow let me know!!