Therapy...and a GOOD day :)

So, on Tuesday I went and saw Kent.  Kent has been my therapist since I was 19.  He knows everything about me....and always seems to give me the most sound advice.  He makes me feel safe, and lets me vent to him and cry and he listens.  It was SO good to go see him and tell him what has been going on the last few years.  I was there for almost 2 hours, and he gave me some of the best advice I have ever received.  I know that I need to let go, and I know that I need to heal myself and find love again.  It's going to take a while to heal completely, but I know it will be worth the wait, and he will be there for me every step of the way.  Thanks Kent, for listening to me and I apologize for emptying an entire box of kleenex's. :)

Today rocked.  I got up at 9 to my moms cleaning ladies here and they were so excited to see me.  They have been cleaning my moms house for years, so they are more like family.  After they left, I went to WaterPro to see my mom at work and to see all my old coworkers.  I can't believe how much WaterPro feels like family to me.  I sat and talked to Paige for almost an hour.  While we were there....Annie had one of her throwing up episodes.  Paige is a huge dog person, so she was trying to catch it in a kleenex so it wouldn't land on the carpet!!  My poor girl....she still throws up sometimes, but I think its just acid reflux.  Paige was so cute with Annie, so I went to cafe rio and bought her lunch, and my mom.  We all sat in the back and ate.  After I left WaterPro, I went to Echelon Edge where I went to Esthetics school to get some moisturizer.  Well, I ended up getting a facial!!  Since I am a past student I get facials for $7.  I couldn't pass it up.  It was one of the best facials I have ever had.  Made me miss doing them.  I can't wait to have an esthetics room out of my house!  On the way home I stopped at Jenie's (my moms cleaning lady) to drop off some money and I ended up staying for an hour.  We sat and had a cup of coffee and just chatted.  She has the cutest dogs ever.  I actually took a picture of one, I will post it on here.  He is huge, like a big teddy bear. :) So, anyway now I am home.  I went to the gym and sweat  my ass off, and now Annie and I are gonna watch a movie and go to sleep!  So there is my "good" day.  I know I am going to have set backs, but I also know what I want in life and I am clear.  One of my favorite songs is by Ben Harper and its called "Forever"....here are the lyrice..  These lyrics are exactly how I feel....

Not talkin' 'bout a year
No not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
In my life anymore
Forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do From you

People spend so much time
Every single day
Runnin' 'round all over town
Givin' their forever away
But no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you

Like a handless clock with numbers
An infinite of time
No not the forever found
Only in the mind
Forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end
So give me your forever
Please your forever
Not a day less will do
From you

 

I can't wait to have my forever.....and I KNOW it will happen. :)  

Amelia

PS....here is Ceasar....one of the coolest dogs....well, next to Annie.